i thought you were asleep, & i touched your hips--but you pressed yourself into me. i could smell the sweetness of liquor as i pulled you closer, my stomach flipping & contouring. collapsing in a fluttering heap under my bony ribs as i opened my eyes & saw your mouth parted in that pretty, girly pout. my ears were burning hot. & i could hear your breathing & feel it crawling up my spine... or was that your slender fingers dancing, teasing me? i touched your cheek, you grabbed my neck. & i kissed you on the lips, & everything changed.
wait...
...it did?
p.s. i was healing in november, and i promised myself i wouldn't be in love with you again until you lived by the words you taught me. how am i doing?
