beautiful.

I'm 

so 

tired

of not 

having 

the 

courage 

to live 

a normal, 

boring 

life.

in your own words...

i spent hours
trying to write
you something

long,

thoughtful,

and beautiful.

but every time

my pen 

touched the paper.

all i could think was...

i love her too much to even breathe.

please. never leave.

i was only trying to spell a loss.

i keep hiding 

little 

notes for 

you, sending 

them through 

text 

in it's various 

form. i just 

want you 

to know... i 

think about you. 

i wish 

i could write 

in this. 

i wish 

i would write 

anything 

down anymore.

please... are you listening?