driving with the windows down and led zeppelin. my hair is still wet and the wind is making my ears go numb with cold, but i don't really mind. that's why we smoke marlboro reds! they put hair on your chest. the cigarette of a real manly man.
i could use being tough and real a lot more in my life lately.
i feel liberated. i feel like today is so beautiful, you can watch me dancing out in front of the coffee shop. pretending to wave signs around because i think i'd be a great sign waver, you know? i could dance and wave and blow kisses and smoke at all the oncoming traffic on state street and 100 north in provo. i would definitely get honked at, not for being pretty but for being eccentric--which by the way, i think is a lot better a reason to be honked at. today is a great day for day drinking!
we drove over to the mall and i stopped by wet seal to see my super secret gay boyfriend and he shooed me out and told me to meet him out back for a smoke, and we did! it was excellent. camel smooths are cool, too. i think i've been digging the taste of real tobacco, real smooth and mellow and mild and not menthol at all. and i'll still smoke smooths till i quit. but i like the mellowness. i like how it makes me feel and forget about when i smoked menthols. he invited me to a real happy party tonight. i will be there like shareware, baby.
i just hope she'll do okay with s and c tonight. i worry about her, still.
i wish i had come home in time to say hello. must have just missed her.
but i am so thrilled for coffee.
and i am so thrilled to spend time with r tonight.
he said he'd buy me a whole pack of cigarettes--just for me.
and he said he's excited because
i can smoke them all night long.
i'm not an eagle. i'm a firebird! a real shaman.
(this is about aaron prestidge!)
