we were both born dirty liars, you know.
grabbed me under my skeleton arms and picked me up and looked through me in my empty eye sockets.
i wasted
time
touching your
hips, giving you
kisses really
soft and
careful because
your tongue
was sore.
you grabbed my neck. & i kissed you on the lips
from your ground down teeth, powdered enamel falling down upon my lap
do you think that's what i want?
acid will corrode
the words i wrote on your back in sharpie marker and you didn't see the smile i left on your shoulder blade:
you lied to me.
& now i wear a bullet like a cross around my neck.
rid the world of one more deadly promise.
i can't stop gasping for air between thoughts of you.
so i swallowed amphetamines to cope
i buried myself in blankets & pea-coats & little lamb pillows.
surrounded by pictures of clouds and hearts and pokemon and
lightening bolts.
i can feel like an adult feels -- there's your proof in blue & red crayola.
you're
always singing.
drawing hearts to each other in the stains of our hot breath on cold glass.
